I?m really sorry there are no recent posting; I have a reason though. Umm, last week I was kind of depressed about life. I was in a retrospective position looking back at the college I have completed thus far, and I kept questioning my loyalty for my goals.
My first and foremost goal is to make sure that everyone around me and I am happy. That sounds a little stupid and sophomoric, but it?s really a goal I believe in because it seems to me that when you are happy, well, things just workout better.
So last Friday I stayed awake in be pondering the question, ?Am I Happy, Am I Happy at Auburn?? The answer is no. I would have been much happier had I chosen to go to school with my friends back in Indiana. It sounds odd for me to say to myself that I?m not happy, because it means I?m failing at my primary goal.
Yet, I believe my decision to come to Auburn and take a completely different route than that of my friends was the absolute best decision of my life. Why? Because I am out on my own, I am doing my own thing, writing my own story and living my life they way I want to. And that, that makes me happy. A contradiction in terms, yes, but a great one at that because I believe it can only have a positive effect/affect on me.
I?ve been using the word sacrifice lately, and I believe it?s a really great word to use in the fact that it implies both losses and gains at the same time. This is what I?m doing at Auburn, giving up something that I love, my former happiness, to gain and understanding of myself with the goal of being a happier person. That is now why I attend Auburn University.
im the second door on the right.
sometimes we all need to move away in order to get our life in order. at least, thats how i feel. i know when i was abroad... i knew no one.. and it was sort of rough at first, but due to the conditions you are in you just make it work, you find friends and you just do what makes you happy. you have to- its like survival instincts or someting. it seems you can then re-evaluate your values... and from that, re-evaluate your life.
bah- the ramblings of a wannabe psych major.
hang in there rice. for a person with way too much experience than he should have at this, i think you're right that breaking away from your friends is great for you sometimes, that is unless you want to hang out with guys who played golf on homecomming night. oh, and if it helps, i have been able to have a drink since i got back here. i guess what i am trying to say is suck it up gohan keiki! boom!
Rice, my advice is to get involved and stay involved. you will meet so many people, and also, you won't even realize how time flies by in this town. the people that complain about the state of this endless town are the ones that want everything handed to them. you are not that kind of person. if you were, you would be at indiana. i took the same risk you did, and although i also question my reasons, it was my decision and to me a place was always a place by the people you were with and the friends that you have, not some designated spot on a map. i didn't want to live in my hometown for all of my life so i got out of there so that i could live life. go to college, away from home.
"you look awful, but... it's good. you're free of mom." - sister in the movie ALMOST FAMOUS
peace amigo